stories of a real life wonder woman

Since I have a paper due by midnight tonight...but then again it will only take me an hour or so to write it so whatever...and I don't want to do it so I am procrastinating... Not that I have anything interesting to say this week...no cool thoughts on well known Bible stories...so that's a bummer... Most of the week I have been thinking about my approaching surgery...well and my doctor's appointment I had this week...what to say about that...my doctor switched up my meds a little bit again which is good and bad...he keeps taking me off more and more anti-rejection meds...I guess since my health status is already end stage renal rejection or however you are technically supposed to say it taking more meds is pointless...they obviously aren't going to reverse what has happened...I'm on dialysis and my kidney function rate is below 20% to the point we don't even talk about what it functions at...we also talked about my hemoglobin and my status on the transplant ...

Like that I am super excited that last semester I made the Dean's list while being super sick and doing homework in the ICU... Or that I am super excited that I am a National Honors Society member in college which means way more to me than it did in high school since I knew a few of the people in my high school NHS weren't so honorable... I have been trying to get out and do a lot of fun things this week so I am not trapped in my house like I am in jail since that is how I have been feeling...my grandparents from AZ are in town so I have been getting out with them...which is a blessing...yet they also worry a lot...so that's no fun...my grandpa also recently had hip surgery and then came to the snow and ice of the Midwest...he has been walking a little slower and even fell on the ice today...that makes me worry and I want to help him out as much as I can...he thanked me the other day for doing that and I told him I was helping him out because I knew what it was like to ...

But really don't want to so I thought I would write this first... Before the crap of this week started I had already started to form a plan of what I was going to write about next...but then when things went super crappy and I became pissed off at everything I posted my last thing...and possibly freaked out a few people...but if things suck I am going to say it so ya'll are going to have to deal with that or not read my stuff...but I have decided to write about what I originally planned to write about so if you want a health update read my last post because we don't really know anything else and are just waiting till my next doctors appointment on the 25th to ask our millions of questions... I have been thinking a lot about my friends and I know I have written about them before but I really am thankful and when you are in a position like I am in having a good support system in your family and friends really is important...let me put it this way...one of the reason Dr. S...

After the last couple days I am frustrated upset with life and pissed about a lot of things...I can't really speak for my family but I am pretty sure mom and dad are pretty frustrated and annoyed by this all too...I don't know about them but that leaves me with little patience in dealing with anything or anyone right now... We really don't know anything much right now...all that happened the other day to send me in this downward tailspin of emotions is that I got a call from the transplant offices saying that because of my low hemoglobin and my recent ulcer they were putting my transplant status as on hold until that all was under control...right after telling me this she asked me if I had any questions and at that moment I didn't because I was just in shock...we haven't been able to ask the millions of questions that we have so there is no way we will be able to answer your questions either...so if we don't give you information we are not trying to be rude we...

If you haven't heard this week has been a little crazy...the doctor has had me testing my Hemoglobin about every other day to keep checking on it trying to make it to the 14th when I can test my blood against Randy's to see if we would be a good match...I had to go to KSB both Tuesday and Thursday to get it checked...then I do an at home blood test tomorrow and we get the results of that Wednesday...which will be three days from 6 weeks...trying to do everything I can to make it...at the last blood test my hemoglobin was 6.9...which is usually when he gives me blood...let me side track and explain something real quick...I might have said this before but...for most people a low hemoglobin would be like 10...I normally run in the 7's...so yeah...my body stays at a hemoglobin of 10 for like a week after a transfusion...maybe...anywho right now I am really tired and trying to take it easy and eat things that should help my red blood cell count hopefully...I have also been tryin...

But look back at the year...I don't know if most people do that or look forward to the year to come more around this time of year...for me though I enjoy looking over the past year and thinking about all the good times the things I want to do again...growth I see in my life and the lives of those around me...and things that I did that may have not been the best that I need to realize I do so that I don't do them anymore... Looking back over the year brought the verses from Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 to mind for me..."There's a time for everything" verses...a time to weep a time to mourn and so on...it felt like this year had a time for every single one of those things listed and there is a lot listed there which means this year was a pretty crazy roller coaster ride of a year...and I don't like roller coasters... A lot of you read the ups and downs of my year in my notes on facebook and in my blog when I finally started it...even just thinking about all the things...