stories of a real life wonder woman

So Thursday and Friday I was stressed out more than I thought and my body has reacted strangely as always. It is not uncommon for me to get canker sores and cold sores in/around my mouth when I am stressed out. This time I have what look like blisters on my tongue towards the back of my mouth. They are more annoying than anything and from what I read they should go away in a few days. They have made me a bit nervous though so I would love if you would be praying with me that they heal quickly and that my mind would be at ease. Speaking of being stressed out - I was talking to mom about everything that had been going on at work and she mentioned that I needed to give myself more credit for the things I can do. And I must admit she is right. I put a lot of pressure on myself and others to be perfect at our jobs. I admit that it is ridiculous to put those standards on others but I do not often cut myself the same kind of slack. So I thought that I would take today to publicly admit so...

I have been waiting about half the week to write this next line. One of my anti-rejection med doses was lowered even more. Basically Alex is the best and is helping he survive on less meds and that is something I don't know if I would have ever imagined. I am pretty dang excited to have that med lowered because that means the side effects shouldn't be quite as bad. Which also means that my transplant could maybe last longer. All good things! Now transplant life still depends on a lot of other things but even a lower dose is something to celebrate. In other new I got to see my parents today and I loved it. Gosh I miss being able to see them whenever I want. They came I think in part because mom knows I have been a bit down lately. So they came and we went to my church and then to lunch. Then they helped me pick out a new vacuum at Target. Also I had dad look at my garage door that has still been acting up for me and he had no problems with it. Unbelievable! Ok this has been ...

Ok first my appointment went well. It was one of those appointments where we just talk about food because my blood work was so good. We talked about this restaurant where I live that we both love but we do often talk about food in part because my doctor is always telling me to eat more and gain weight. I like that we can talk about food and not always be so serious. And I like that my doctor takes the time to know me not just my chart. So yeah my appointment went really well. This week I finally changed the background picture on my computer at work. It has been the blue windows logo thing that comes with PCs. I quickly got sick of it but I finally felt comfortable enough to change it to this- A lot of people at work have commented on it. About how my sister and I look a like. About how cute we all are. About how tall my brother is. About how fun my sister's wedding theme was. About how pretty the clothes are. And more. And for me it feels good to have these faces smiling at me...

First on the health front. I can tell my body is still trying to get back to my normal because some days at work I have still felt sick and been worn out. But I have been taking it very easy this weekend so hopefully that will help. Also I have an appointment this week. I will have to take a half day off work but when you have a ton of health problems it is normal for the doctor to want to see you a week or two after you get out of the hospital to check on you. I am oddly looking forward to it probably because I really like my doctor and know that he cares about me. Besides feeling a little sick I have been super moody. I thought that I would want to come back from break and get back into my routine with work and whatever but that has not been the case. Instead I feel like I am back at square one of wondering why I am here. Granted feeling sick does make me feel moody but I have also had some rough days at work. I don't know how all to describe it but to say that I have been feel...

Before anything else I feel I should share this - I don't actually enjoy having people know my business. Yes, I am glad people want to pray for me and care for me but I often wish there was a different way to do that. Because I don't like having any attention on me in anyway. But when you are sick a lot of attention is going to be on you. So I started writing these as a way to keep people updated on what I am dealing with. But every week it is a struggle for me to write these. It is a struggle every week to open myself up and let others in. I would rather hide away but God continues to force me out of my comfort zone in the hope that someone else will read these and learn something or even maybe feel like they are not alone. So here's how this week went after getting home. I spent a lot of time in bed sleeping off my sickness. I spent a lot of time on the couch watching movies with mom. I didn't spend a lot of time eating since the antibiotic I was on made me feel ti...