stories of a real life wonder woman

First - Sorry this is later in the day than normal. I was binge watching Fuller House and completely forgot about writing a blog post. Second - Sorry about my freak out last week. Sometimes life is rough and everything gets out of focus for me. This week has been a little crazy at work. I finished the archives project I was working on! That feels really dang good since I have been working on it since before Christmas. I also did a display for archives that I am very proud of. Also our librarian has been giving me some on the job training to try to get me ready for more work and to help build up some confidence in me about my abilities. It feels really good that she and our boss trust me with so much and want to help me learn and succeed. That has been amazing. I went out with my boss and a friend of hers Saturday morning to walk around the downtown here. It was nice to spend some time outside of my house and explore this town a little more. Then my brother and nephews came by. Se...

I have shingles again. That makes three times. This time on my tongue. It doesn't really hurt so that is a positive. Mostly it just feels like something is stuck in my throat which is annoying. Also I have had them for three weeks. Yeah the blister type bumps on my tongue that I have been talking about - those are shingles. Though it doesn't hurt I still find myself getting upset because shingles again, really? Shingles once was upsetting enough but shingles three times - I don't even know how to describe how upset I am when that thought hits me at different times. Also I have been getting upset with myself. Upset that I didn't realize that that's what I have again even though the signs are there. Upset that obviously I am still not good at handling stress. Upset that I let myself get so stressed out to the point that my body fights itself. But having shingles and being so emotional means that I cannot deny how stressed out I am. I know I am not the first pers...

Ok health - I basically feel how I always feel - tired and sick to my stomach - but as always I am dealing with it. Life goes on whether I feel good or not. Work has settled into a bit of a groove though I am almost done with the project I have been working on for a while. And by almost done I mean that I should be done with it in two weeks - maybe sooner. It feels good to feel like I can see the end of this project and I am sure that when I am done with this I will find another project to work like crazy on. Despite feeling my normal amount of sick - plus a bit more tired - I have been feeling strong. I think that acknowledging the things I have been accomplishing and the skills I do have has helped with that feeling. I gotta tell you it's a lot of work to not only fight off the negative thoughts but to speak positivity into my life. But the benefits so far are pretty great. And that's pretty much it. I have been hiding out in my house from the cold because that wears me...

Not sure what to say this week. I still have the blisters in my mouth and I am waiting to see what will happen with those. They don't really hurt but they are annoying. I have been trying not to think about them since they appeared from stress. So I don;t want to keep stressing about them and make them worse. Which reminds me - it has been a lot of work but I feel like I haven't been stressing as much this week. I feel like I have been better able to acknowledge my accomplishments at work and the skills that I do have. I have also gotten some more positive feed back at work and have been trying to hold onto that feed back instead of brushing it off. Doing these things takes a lot of effort and often means I have to first stop the negative talk. But even doing that is an accomplishment that I am proud of. Mostly it has been a calm week with not much excitement. The students are settling back into a routine and I am back to having a lot of quiet nights in the library. This ...