stories of a real life wonder woman

Hey everyone, This week has been hard for me. I am still fighting with my body over quite a bit of nausea after eating. I also have been flipping back and forth between thinking this nausea is connected to my previous intestinal problems and the possibility that is could be some type of stomach flu. Either way I have been feeling super gross and worn out from pushing myself through the days. This got me thinking about how since I am always sick I feel like I have be be sick enough to miss work before I stay home or go home. I feel like for me what happens is I feel like I have to prove to myself somehow that its ok to miss. And I was thinking about how I define or measure that sickness. The main points would be vomiting, fever, or hospitalization. Now if I had a fever or was throwing up that much I would have to go to the hospital anyway because of my health history. But I have been known to not often get a fever. And I have also been known to not only not throw up often but will m...

So I don't have much for you today. Just some health updates. First as is per usual with my life I have not been sleeping well. And getting out of bed as always is super difficult. Unfortunately my sick body is not like a healthy body. Think of it like this - my body always feels the aches and pains that you would feel when you have a cold plus the aches and pains of that of at least a 60 year old body. Add to that my insomnia so that according to my fit bit I never enter any kind of deep restful sleep - well basically I dread getting out of bed. But life dictated that that is a must. So I do. It just takes a little extra time some mornings. Second I have lately been having quite a bit of nausea. For over a week it has been the worst about 10 minutes after eating. Though today when I woke up I felt like I was going to throw up which is always a great way to wake up. So I have an appointment with my GI doctor in a little over a week. Because of my past history of polyps and ulce...

Hey everyone, Today was pretty dang great. And I could go into everything but I think instead I just want to post this- "Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is not here; he has risen!" Luke 24 end of 5 beginning of 6 "Yet it was our weaknesses he carried; it was our sorrows that weighed him down. And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God, a punishment for his own sins! But he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed."                                  Isaiah 53:4-5 And that makes all the difference. Wishing you a Happy Easter and that you and I would learn how to live in that truth more and more each day. He is Risen Indeed!

Hey all, So first I would like to say that this first week back to work post-vacation has been great. Not really because work has been different - that's been pretty normal - but because I did not realize how much I needed a break from work. In the past week I have been less frustrated and less on edge and it has been incredible. I was expecting that when I got back from vacation I would hopefully feel relaxed but I was not expecting that it would be like a clearing of my mind. While on vacation I didn't worry about work at all and that was very freeing which has made it easier now that I am back at work to worry about things less. And this has been a lesson for myself to use my vacation days and enjoy time away from work. It feels like so much junk that was rattling around in my mind was dumped out somewhere on my vacation and it can stay there. In other news sometimes on Sundays I think about how much I enjoy the church I am going to here. I don't always make it because...

Hi All, Don't get me wrong vacation was Great but gosh sleeping in my own bed last night was incredible. I feel rested and happy to be home and as ready as I think I can be to go back to work tomorrow. So while I was on vacation I did a lot of reminiscing on my year in AZ going to school which of course led me to thinking about how sick I was. How much I needed to be home in part because I was so sick. I mean I had to have a blood transfusion the day before my flight to take me back home. That would be the first of many blood transfusions over the next few years. I remember being happy to be going home but sad and a bit scared about how sick I was already feeling. And I remember listening to Steven Curtis Chapman's Beauty Will Rise album a lot. So it seemed only fitting that while I was on vacation not only was I in the middle of reading his new book (still have some to read but much closer to the end thanks to downtime) I also was listening to a lot of his music includi...