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Moving

Guys! It feels so incredible to be in my house! I figured when I moved in it would feel good because I would be in one place and in a place that I own. But I did not expect the calmness that I currently feel. I love having things organized and put away and as such the last two times that I moved I unpacked everything within something like 48 hours. This time I feel like I don't care how long it takes me because I am here. In my house. Sure I have unpacked somethings. I mean I unpacked my clothes and got my closet set up because it has been making me smile just thinking about how all my clothes would be in one room instead of in the closets of every room. And I have unpacked a few other things as I have realized I needed things. But instead of unpacking in a feverish panic like I have done before I have been doing a lot of relaxing on my couch being happy to just be here. After the past few weeks that were filled with stress and anxiety it feels good to be here and rest. To

"All Shall be Well"

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Oh my gosh you guys. I can't get over this - I have been thinking about how I went to that other church for months and no one even talked to me. And I haven't been going to this church long and I get this when the ladies in my Sunday School find out I bought a house. Seriously! I mean it's a pretty huge deal that I even feel comfortable enough to go to Sunday School. And this! Ugh! I love this! I mean always love seeing the body be the body but to be invited into and included in the body - amazing! Also I kept thinking during the day that my friends that got upset when they heard no one was talking to me at the other church will be beyond thrilled to see this. Also this feels good on another level. Even with buying the house I still have been a little freaked out by how this makes things feel even more permanent. Living here, working here, etc. And sometimes the doubts still kick in asking "Was this a good idea?" But today was one of many confirmations t

Dang

So I'm a homeowner. How weird is that? In like a cool way. Ha. It's a little crazy. And I have been doing good I think about not getting to freaked out about things. I have been just trying to work on things when I can and the things that I can. It's exciting that the house is mine. And that alone does have me feeling less anxious because I can go check on things after a big storm. And I mean go check on things because I don't live there yet. I decided that since my rent was due a few days before my house closing I would take the month to try to get some things done before moving in. I live close though so that is nice. Anyway I have been trying to just work and not get overwhelmed or frustrated but it is obvious I have been since I freaked out a little today. And as per usual it was after noticing something else that was done wrong that is an easy fix. Also as per usual it wasn't actually about the thing that was noticed. And also as per usual it is because I am

Upcoming Events and Job Descriptions

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Hey there, First these few things - 1) Tuesday will be a pretty busy day for me. I have an upper endoscopy in the morning. It's the yearly look at my stomach to see what is going on with those polyps that love to develop there. When they looked a year ago they found nothing. This year I am hoping for the same because it may mean that I would stop going for a yearly look which would be great. But since I have had some nausea recently I am sort of hoping that they do something because that would give some reason to the nausea other than stress. 2) Tuesday will also be busy because I am closing on my house in the afternoon. I am excited and nervous. Mom will be here for that since she will be taking me to the endoscopy. Mom has not yet seen the house nor has dad so it will be fun for mom to see the house for the first time. I still get nervous about the decision I made to buy the house thinking maybe it was wrong but there's no going back now. And that is only part of the re