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Speak Love

Hey there, So I am thinking I might change to posting on Monday night's but we will see what happens. My mom put the idea in my mind awhile a go. And I am still thinking about it. I am more often than not in a better mood on Monday night after the week has started. But I am also usually tired after work and don't want to do a thing. So...who knows. I will keep you posted on what I decide, if I decide anything. I may just continue to post whenever I feel like it as long as it is once a week. I just took a week off and I kind of wish it was longer. I mean it was nice to get into work and have the new librarian excited that I was back because she has been running the library alone for two days. And I kept telling myself that I had a whole week off so I couldn't be grouchy about being back at work. I would like to think I did good at getting work done but also relaxing. The truth is that even when I was relaxing I was thinking about all the things I still wanted done at m

Rest

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Hey guys, The past few days I have been thinking a lot again about Psalm 23. What has been resounding in my head yet again is the second verse "He makes me lie down in green pastures." And I know a lot of time there can be like this flowery goodness behind this Psalm but for me this line sometimes is a smack in the face because of those first three words - he makes me. Guys I so often think I know what is best for me. I think I know my body best, know my mind best, know myself best, know my limits best, and the list goes on. When it comes to humans I think that is most true. I know myself better than any human does because I am a soul living in this body and I have learned to an extent to listen to how it feels. But I forget that that does not mean I know me - soul nor body - better than my Heavenly Father does. And sometimes because I don't listen the first few times when he tells me to take a break he has to get me to see how much a need it. I have been thinking

Where he is that's where I want to be

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Hey, So first I feel like I should disclose that most of tonight's blog post was written this morning during church. After Sunday School I was feeling like I needed to say some things and I guess felt semi-inspired to write. And since that does not always happen for me I wrote these things out during the sermon. Sorry pastor. Truthfully I should probably share these things in class as well but for now I am sharing them here. Second - it's world suicide prevention day and guys this is so important. Too many lives are cut short for various reason and that is not ever ok. We were all made for more than being a story that is cut way too short. I was made for laughing, for writing, for guiding students in their research, for braving through the hard days with my family and for long nights spent with dear friends. I was made to stay until God says "come home" and so were you. Stay. Now for the main thing I wrote after Sunday School - I've been going to Sunday Sc

Positives

Hey there, So yesterday around 6:00 am, or right before I woke up and my legs were in a lot of pain. Cramping and spazzing and no good. And then when they calmed down a little the rest of my body felt so sick. OS then I took it easy all day. And then forgot about posting until late and by that time thought "Forget it, I have tomorrow." I would say one of the hard parts for me about this house is not always getting to work as long or as hard as I want to. I mean I have been doing better at listening to my body and trying to relax. But as per usual I do feel a bit limited by my body. That is always frustrating to me no matter the situation. But I did get the main thing done I wanted to do this weekend. And I even spent some time in the pool. And so even when I am frustrated with my body I have to remind myself to look at those positives. And really there were a lot of positives this week. I have a sort of half bath in my basement and no longer have to walk up the st