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Ok

I was going to wait until tomorrow night to post but I got thinking that if I feel too tired to post tonight I am definitely going to feel too tired tomorrow night after working. So here goes... First - I have not been feeling great this weekend. Nothing to get alarmed about. It just happens when you are a sick person and on all kinds of meds to keep you alive. You have days where you don't have the strength for stuff and don't push yourself through anything because you don't have too. That has been me this weekend. Just feeling the overall pain that I usually have and letting that make me stay home. And that's ok. Which also means that I didn't get out of bed to go to church today. I was excited to go back to the most recent church I tried but I decided it was ok to stay in bed until well after church started. Sometimes pain and sickness win. It does suck but it is also normal. That's a fact of my life and that's ok. Speaking of that... Second - I h

BOND

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So here's a little something I said at our staff meeting at BOND Saturday - "So I wrote this down because I'm a... (momma - 'word nerd') yeah. My work situation will be changing soon but more important than that my heart and mind have changed. But probably not in the way you were all hoping. I really am in a much better place and feeling more me than I have in years but I am at a place of peace where I feel like it's time for me to move on from this ministry. And I want to say thank you to all of you not only for making me feel loved but for making me feel important and useful. You have made me feel like my work here mattered - thank you. The fact that you all have been there for me and my family through some shit stuff of life makes saying goodbye to this ministry hard - but I still believe it is right for me. Thank for making my 15 or 16 years of ministry here great. I say 15 or 16 because I started as a dish girl when I was in junior high and did that for

A Few Things

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Ok first about trying a new church. I know some of you might be surprised that I tried a new church today because everyone was so nice to me at the last church I tried but there is more to a church than how friendly everyone was. After going a few more times I realized it wasn't for me. So today I tried a new church. Getting to church is also an adventure as it is scary to go to new places let alone churches. I was already feeling nervous and then my pants split when I went to put on my socks. So then I had to extra calm myself down. Anyway my first impression when I walked in the door was to almost start laughing because they have the same gross orange pews as the church I grew up in. Soon after I sat down an older gentleman who I think was working greeting people came over and talked to me quite a bit and even got me a bulletin. When he came back with the bulletin I told him where I worked and he said his son worked there and I immediately knew who his son is. And then he introd

Invest in People

This week was much better than last mostly because I am not feeling as sick. I still have a little bit of a cough but I am feeling much better. In other news mom and dad had an open house at their home yesterday to thank the people that helped with it. It was fun to catch up with people and remember what the process was like. And I still think it's fun that people can't believe the whole front of the house that is now one big room used to be 5 very small rooms. During the open house I got thinking about how my parents interact with people. I love that even though people came over to celebrate with them and see the finished project my parents still took time all throughout the day to invest in other people. My parents love to ask people about their lives. And not just "how are you" type questions but questions that show that they know and are invested in those around them. My parents get that life is hard for everyone and that everyone is fighting some sort of batt

Sick and Emotional and Known and Loved

First I feel like I should give a little disclaimer this week. I am rather emotional today and have been for the past few days. That's what happens when I am sick. I have had some sort of cold all week and missed almost three fulls days of work so I am emotional cause of that. Also I watched The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe last night. Then today I watched Prince Caspian followed by Voyage of the Dawn Treader .  C.S. Lewis man - his words speak to my heart. So on the being sick note - I went into work for a few hours Monday but feeling like your throat is on fire quickly makes you want to crawl back into bed. And then the next two days I couldn't breathe out of my nose and felt generally out of it. When I was in school I most likely would have pushed myself through those kinds of days. Wearing myself out even more and infecting those around me with what I had. Telling myself that I couldn't miss. That not being there was worse than being there and feeling like shit