stories of a real life wonder woman

I feel like my brain doesn't work today so you will ahve to forgive me if nothing I write makes sense. I have spent the whole weekend doing nothing at home. I haven't gotten to do that since June and it has been so nice. I don't get me wrong I love going home and seeing my family and friends but I also love sleeping all day and not having anything scheduled. This weekend has been a much needed break for me and at the moment I don't want it to end. But you know work - so it has to end. Here's the thing. I love my job. I do. But not having the summer off and being more busy during the summer than the rest of the year had me not feeling ready to welcome the students back this week. But we did and it was fine. I'm just tired man. Anyway work - it's been nice to see that I am more confident this year about things that I was terrified to do last year. Not feeling anxious about students coming back or answering their questions was nice. Makes me feel good to

This week has been ok. Students come back tomorrow so people have been stressing out and freaking out about that. And the 50th Anniversary Celebration of the college is coming up in about a month so people are stressing out and freaking out about that. And I all too often put pressure on myself to make it so that others don't stress out or get to the point of freaking out. But that's really not my job and then makes me stress out and freak out because it is also not in my control what others emotions are going to do. I have been thinking about how I have been sharing some triumphs lately and I want it to be clear that I am not doing that too brag. Like I don't say that I am great at my job as a brag. I say it because I need to remember that. I am 100 times better at remembering the bad things and the times I have messed up than I am at remembering the good. I have been feeling like if I vocalize these things and talk about the good I have been doing maybe I will

I ma so sorry ya'll. I just remembered I was gonna post today. I  didn't want to post yesterday at my normal time because I was so grouchy and emotional. I get that way when I am tired and I hadn't slept more than four hours a night for the previous 5 nights. Anyway I got some sleep last night so I am in a better mood today. Basically the last couple days have been incredible. First I found something really cool in archives. I cannot wait until I can tell you all about it. It has reminded me that I am good at what I do and that I am in the right field. A lot of people where I work are pretty excited about it and so glad I found it. I will definitely tell you all more as soon as I can. Second I got to see a bunch of people that I love this weekend. A friend of ours got married and gosh it is always good to see people that I care about happy. Does my heart good and reminds me that there is good in this broken and hurting world. I didn't really tear up the dance floo

"I yelled in the wind, it came rolling back to sweep me off my feet. I cried to rain, it came pouring down to drown my disbelief." - Relient K from the song God First my appointment with my kidney doctor this week went good. We always end up laughing about so many things unrelated to my health and I love that. Recently when I met a new doctor I wasn't nervous or as shy as I would have been a few years ago. I felt like I could actually ask questions and get answers instead of fearing being blown off. I credit doctor Sader for that because for the longest time I was scared to ask him things because I had had a string of doctors who it seemed like didn't know how to help me or want to help me or what. I had doctors that made me feel like I wasn't heard so I just stopped talking. Dr. Sader reminded me that I am heard and I should be heard. So I feel like I have that confidence before doctors again because of him. And with all the doctors I have to see that feels rea

First a few little updates - I have a scope on Friday. Depending on the size of the polyps I have in my stomach this time they should be removed during the scope. If they are really big I might have to schedule another scope later. Also I got into a car accident last night. Just me and my car misjudging traffic and then not wanting to hit a semi. Luckily I was going slow enough that hitting the road divider wasn't that big a deal (my air bags didn't even deploy.) But my car still needs work done to it. And it still was no fun. But no one was hurt or sent to the hospital because of my mistake and so I am trying to look at the good instead of the bad. Anywho... This weekend was a lot of fun. I stayed home Friday night with the intention of going to see the hot air balloons here but then after work was so worn out that I didn't want to leave my house. So I didn't. Then Saturday I headed to mom and dad's so we could go out to my grandpa's cabin that night fo