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Growth

Hey there, Not quite sure what to post about this week. I am sure some of you saw that I worked outside on my house this weekend trying to take care of the yard. I did overdo it and I don't know how I didn't pass out either day. But I'm mostly fine now so whatever. Ha. Even though I overdid it it does feel very good to have those things done. I knew it would feel good to have my own place and be investing in my own place with every little thing I did. But it is feeling even better than I imagined. So even though I did more than my sick body can totally handle I do feel very good that I am taking care of my house. That is a confidence booster for me. Speaking of confidence. I recently realized that some of what I thought was confidence in myself has actually been pride. And that pride has been causing me to have negative thoughts and emotions about a lot of things. The majority of those things focus around my job and when you are negative all day at work that is no fun

Short Tuesday Post

Hey all, Time for another Tuesday post. Though this time I haven't posted mostly because I am not sure what to post. I spent some time with my parents this weekend. I didn't go because we were celebrating and we didn't do much of anything but it was a nice weekend. I just think my parents are great and sometimes I just want to be in their presence even if all we do is watch documentaries on Netflix. (which is what mom and I did most of Saturday.) It was also my first weekend away from my house since moving in and that was a little nerve wracking also because it was the first time we have had thunderstorms since I moved in. Not knowing what is going on at your house during a storm is a weird thing. You know you couldn't do anything if there was a problem and you were home but you also know that at least it wouldn't be as big of a surprise all at once. But nothing went wrong so all is well. On the health front my doctor has raised one of my medicines again. My

Late Post

Hey there, So Sunday I was feeling like I needed to take a mental health day from life. And though it ended up great it also left my thoughts too cloudy to post. Then last night I ended up facetiming with my brother Kenny and that was more important than posting to my blog. So here we are. It's Tuesday and I'm a hot mess. Part of my mental health day Sunday was reminding myself that though I like to think I can do things myself I cannot. The most recent example is all the pressure I have been putting on myself. With my job I think that if I can just work hard enough and show that I am valuable that somehow that will change the whole entire public school education system budget in my state. Ok in reality no. But in the back of my mind I am always fearful of what if smaller publicly funded schools like the one I work at have to shut down. And somehow that computes as if I work hard enough that won't be a problem. That makes no economic sense but that's what my mind

A few thoughts from the week

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Hey, So I know I said last week that I might start posting on Mondays and here we are on Sunday and I am posting. But I have some different thoughts/thing on my mind so I thought why not post. NOw the question is can I remember them all. First this album came out recently - And I am digging it. And as per usual Matt Maher's music is speaking to my heart. So you know - check it out maybe. Second I thought I would give a little update for those of you who are following what is going on with my church. I know some of you were praying when I was trying out churches and trying to figure out where I maybe fit. And then rejoiced when I said that I had found a church. And then a few of you rejoiced some more when I mentioned a few months ago that the people I sit by in church were trying to encourage me to be on the worship team (and some of you agreed and tried to gently push as well - Gary.) Well today I did it. And others told me it went well. And not that it didn't I j