Mind Blown

Today has been a slow moving day for me. I don't feel the best. It's the type of day when I would still go to work but I don't feel 100% or even 90%. Days like this kind of make me nervous. They don't happen often but when I have had so many bad ones days like today hang over me and cause me to worry that something worse is going on. I often wish that I wouldn't get worn out like I all to often do - even with my new kidney I feel like I still have to watch what I am doing since there are still so many other factors in my life that can make me tire out easily.

That does make me worry a little about how I will feel with work but I think it will be easy for me to push through rough days and get into my job because...

I FREAKIN LOVE MY JOB AND I LOVE LOVE LOVE BEING A LIBRARIAN!!!!!

The students aren't even at the school yet and I am still training but I love it. I love my job. Even though it made me a little nervous I love being in charge of inter-library loans. I love that part of my job is to basically get library books in the mail from other places. That's so cool to me.

I think my supervisor is cool and we get along. We are already laughing at each others jokes. And I think a friendship is already developing there which is really cool. I am not always as great at making friends as people seem to think I am so I am still working on that.

I am also still working on finding a church. Not feeling good today put a stop to that for the day.

Mostly though it has been an incredible week. I keep finding myself smiling in unbelief that I get to go to a job that I enjoy so much and that I get to call myself a librarian.

Blows my mind - just like mom was telling me God was going to do and I was trying to remember. Sometimes I can't believe I am on the other side of that.

May you hold on to the belief that God will blow your mind and then celebrate it when he does.  

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