stories of a real life wonder woman

Hey guys, The past few days have sort of felt a little like a blur. Not because a lot is going on a work. Things have been very quiet in the library with summer upon us and very few classes going on on campus right now. Instead they have felt a little like a blur because some things I have been thinking about for a while kicked into motion a little. See I have been thinking about how I like the town I live in. And I like where I work and the people I work with. And I found a church I like a lot where the people like me. And how I would prefer to be in a house I own instead of a rental - put down some real roots. Which this weekend turned into looking at a house. And though it isn't quite what I thought I wanted I really like it - a lot. And though I don't have an offer in on it seeing it in person has raised a lot of questions and has me thinking about a lot of different things. And it's exciting and scary and I think maybe good. And a few fun things from the ...

Man this weekend wore me out. This weekend was fun for me. Yesterday at the Memorial Day Picnic I felt like I couldn't, didn't, and didn't want to stop laughing. There is something about being at one of your favorite places with some of your favorite people that is restorative for the soul. And I needed that time this weekend. I needed the uncontrolled laughter with and at my friends. I needed the time with my momma and the wisdom she shared. I needed to see and touch the people I care about to be reminded that they are real and love me. Because my mind loves to play tricks on me. To hold me in places of doubt and unbelief. To try to tell me that God isn't good and doesn't do big things and doesn't care about my dreams. To whisper lies that I am unworthy and unloved. But this weekend helped to shut out those voices and thoughts. To remind me who I am in Christ and how that is what matters. Sometimes all I need is one night spent with my momma's care ...

Hey there, So first things first I would like to say that even though I am not currently on a transplant list or on dialysis that does not mean I am not a sick. I am still sick. I will always be sick. That never changes because of how illness and medications and more have ravaged my body. Right now I am just relatively healthy. But because of everything that has happened to my body over the years sometimes it just does not work properly like the last few days. It's like the years catch up for a moment reminding my broken human body how frail and weak it is. And well it's no fun. And though I have theories as to why that happens the real cause is my never ending sickness. Which the doctors know about so there is no reason to call them. And for which there is no cure. And so I just deal with the rough days as well as I can. And yeah that sucks but that is also just life. Ok on to other things - I mentioned on my facebook page that good things had happened at my meeting with my ...

Hey, On the health front I thought I was getting over my nausea but in the last few days it seems to have returned along with somethings that may possibly be side effects of taking a different kind of supplement. And so I am just very frustrated with my body and not feeling great. Also going to the chiropractor is as can be expected. My back and neck are pretty messed up so I have to go in multiple times a week for multiple weeks to not only set things right but to remind them where they should be. And as someone who quickly gets sick of having people in her personal space going to the chiropractor is hard even when I know the results will be good. In other news semi-health related in sort of a round about way I have been trying to think about where I want to go in life. Like where I see myself in five years or whatever. This is proving to be difficult for me to think of. Yes, I am a planner but not really long term. So much of my life as a sick kid has been a hindrance to long ter...

Hey All, So I have some updates of sorts. I went to the GI Monday and he does not want to do a scope and does not believe that I have polyps. My only symptom has been nausea and usually when I have polyps a lot more is going on including low hemoglobin and my hemoglobin has been great. He does want to take me off of the stomach med I have been on because he says there is no reason why I would still be on it so he is slowly taking me off it. hopefully I will be fully off it in two months. So far that is going really good. He also gave me a medicine to help with the nausea. He does not know why I have nausea but believes it is not GI related. So far backing off that other med has help with my nausea though which is nice. It is still unpredictable when I will feel sick to my stomach and why but it has been lessening. I also finally went to a chiropractor for the first time since moving here. Even though I have been having some pain I have been putting it off because I often feel lik...

Hey everyone, This week has been hard for me. I am still fighting with my body over quite a bit of nausea after eating. I also have been flipping back and forth between thinking this nausea is connected to my previous intestinal problems and the possibility that is could be some type of stomach flu. Either way I have been feeling super gross and worn out from pushing myself through the days. This got me thinking about how since I am always sick I feel like I have be be sick enough to miss work before I stay home or go home. I feel like for me what happens is I feel like I have to prove to myself somehow that its ok to miss. And I was thinking about how I define or measure that sickness. The main points would be vomiting, fever, or hospitalization. Now if I had a fever or was throwing up that much I would have to go to the hospital anyway because of my health history. But I have been known to not often get a fever. And I have also been known to not only not throw up often but will m...

So I don't have much for you today. Just some health updates. First as is per usual with my life I have not been sleeping well. And getting out of bed as always is super difficult. Unfortunately my sick body is not like a healthy body. Think of it like this - my body always feels the aches and pains that you would feel when you have a cold plus the aches and pains of that of at least a 60 year old body. Add to that my insomnia so that according to my fit bit I never enter any kind of deep restful sleep - well basically I dread getting out of bed. But life dictated that that is a must. So I do. It just takes a little extra time some mornings. Second I have lately been having quite a bit of nausea. For over a week it has been the worst about 10 minutes after eating. Though today when I woke up I felt like I was going to throw up which is always a great way to wake up. So I have an appointment with my GI doctor in a little over a week. Because of my past history of polyps and ulce...